Taking off her Fear

“One must take off her fear like clothing; One must travel at night; This is the seeking after God” – Maureen Morehead, In a Yellow Room The last few weeks have been all about navigating fear. Fear that my son and brother were or would be harmed on the island of St. John during Hurricanes Irma and Maria. A mother’s …

Doing it Anyway

I’d rather do almost anything than meditate. The urge to resist is so strong. Doing it anyway.

God and Flog

My friend told me about a silicone flogger. She said that you can put it in the dishwasher. Sexy and domestic.

Box of Rain

“It’s all a dream we dreamed one afternoon, long ago.” ‎Phil Lesh‎, ‎Robert Hunter Heard this song on the car on the way home from work, etc.. tonight. I needed it.

My Daily Sadhana

At least 30 minutes every morning and evening: Energization Exercises Hong Sau Om Kriya Practice Devotion

Back in the Real World

Day 1 of trying to maintain a spiritual routine back at home. Almost blew it. Procratinated in bed for way too long. Tired. Finally got up and meditated anyway. Argued with boyfriend, stress at work.

Ben Franklin

The Body of B. Franklin, Printer; Like the Cover of an old Book, Its Contents torn out, And Stript of its Lettering and Gilding, Lies here, Food for Worms. But the Work shall not be wholly lost: For it will, as he believ’d, appear once more, In a new & more perfect Edition, Corrected and Amended By the Author.

Laundry, Laundry, Laundry

I thought this week was going to be relaxing. Luxuriating in the hotel room. Deep sleeps. Quiet meditations. But becuase of these damn worms, I need to do my laundry every day. The hotel charges $8/pair of underwear. So I have to take a $20 cab ride to a laundry mat every day and pay $22 to have my laundry …

Meditating on my Butthole

I can not fucking beleive this. I arrived in LA and got word from my doctor that I had pinworms. I knew something felt wrong, but was in deep denial. I am trying to focus on the light of spiritual eye, but my attention is continually drawn to the worms in my butthole. Can’t beleive that this is how my …

Make Me One With Everything

I’m at the Maui airport, on my way to the Self Realization Fellowship covocation in Los Angeles. Today-ish is the start of my year of seriously devoting myself to my spiritual path. Last night was my birthday, I ate sweet cake drank and drank too much wine on an empty stomach.  I haven’t eaten enough today either. I ordered a …